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It had to end.

It wasn’t forever. It had to end. I cherished every moment. I engraved every moment somewhere deep in my heart. I tried to soak up the feeling of happiness and to be in love. I used to close my eyes during our phone calls and listen to the sound of your voice. I used to listen to your laughter. Laughter that was on your lips yet filled my life with joy. I used to absorb that laughter, so that I could picture it anytime. It felt like I am drinking endlessly alone at night. My mind is full of random happy thoughts, knowing that drinking would cause me trouble in the morning. But I don’t care. I want to keep going because those random happy thoughts feel great. You were my happy thoughts, and in the morning, you are my hangover too, that nearly killed me. Hangover that gave me numbness. I don’t know how long or what it’s going to take for me to get rid of that numbness now. Now I am empty. There are no happy thoughts. There is no drinking endlessly. ...

An Open Letter to Everyone Who Thinks I’m Not ‘Wife Material’

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With a Patiala peg in my left hand I was dancing on the beats of ‘Move to Miami’ when this so-called friend came close and started throwing unwanted trash out of his mouth. “You’re pretty. You work hard, but you know you should just improve yourself a bit now. You’re 25 and soon you might get married. Make yourself wife-material. Be marriage-type.” I didn’t know what to say. In the most difficult situations of life, when you don’t know what to say, not only your brain stops working but your other body parts stop responding too. I stood still there, my mouth was dry, and I moved out of the party immediately. I drove as fast as I possibly could.   Here I am, standing in front of a wall mirror, trying to gather all my thoughts. This was the perfect time for me to introspect and figure out what exactly is wrong with me? When I was born, my dad didn’t say “A future-wife is born! I am going to raise her as a marriage-material”.   When I got fir...

Why modern day relationships are falling apart so easily?

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We are the 90’s kids. There are a lot of things that we have witnessed and were a part of. From spending hours and hours on Smart phones to eating soil at the garden, we lived both. Moving away from positive aspects to negative aspects, we’re probably the first generation who has lost the ability to be in love as well. We date for the sake of dating. The only question that remains is whether we'll be remembered for being the first generation to accept a more logical and rational take on love or the generation that gave up on it altogether. Let’s just jump over the reasons to find why our generation is losing the capability to be in love. 1.   We love perfection  We crave for perfection. Today if we love someone and tomorrow if we find someone better than         our partner, we instantly “Fall in Love” with the “Better one”. The grass always seems greener       on the other side. But who the hell told you to...

"Likhi Hui Kitaab"

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Kabhi aajata hai paas khud tu, Kabhi chala jata hai dur udhar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. Kabhi teri aankho mei ishq dikhta hai, Kabhi dikhta hai shikwon ka manzar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. Kabhi kabhi choo jata hai tu rooh meri, Kabhi lag jaati hai tujhe meri hee nazar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. Kabhi toh hamesha paas sa hota hai mere, achaank chor bhi jata hai tu mujhe aksar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. Na jaane kon se khwaab hai tere, Na jaane kis insaan ka hai ye asar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. Abhi nahi hai mana tujhe, Par ab wakt hee karaega tujhe meri kadar, Samajhne ko toh samjh lu mai tujhe,  Likhi hui koi kitaab ho tu agar. I am always interested to hear from...

Aaina- A Tale of Betrayal

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Aaina hu mai tera, Jab jab saamne aaungi, Tujhe tujhse, teri hakiqat se mai rubaroo karaungi. Tujhe khauf bhi hoga mera, Mujhe dekhne ke bechaini bhi hogi, Mujhse nafrat bhi hogi tujhe, Par wo nafrat bhi tujhe sehni hee hogi. Aakho mei tujhe meri apni bewafaai bhi dikhegi, Dikhega beetey lamho ka aks, Khuda ki khudaai bhi dikhegi, Aaina hu mai tera, Jab jab saamne aaungi, Tujhe tujhse, teri hakiqat se mai rubaroo karaungi. Par tere haalaat teri jubaan sambhaal nahi paaegi, Beete palo ki yaad tere dil ke darwazo par dastak de jaegi, Ro liyo tu, Pachta bhi liyo uss wakt kyuki, Ye sazaa hai tere gunaaho ki jo tujhe sehni hee hogi. Na hogi koi takraar uss waakt, Na koi galatfehmi hee hogi, Fir bhi teri rooh se teri mulaakaat karwa mai jaungi. Aaina hu mai tera, Jab jab saamne aaungi, Tujhe tujhse, teri hakiqat se mai rubaroo karaungi. Na tujhse ishq hai ab, Na koi jazbaat h...

An Open Letter to my future partner

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Dear, Years have been passed, years are passing by and they will keep on passing. Maybe We’ve already met, maybe we haven’t. Maybe I am aware of your presence in my life right now, maybe I’m not.  All I want to ask is why? Why can’t I see you in my life right now? You are my soulmate and our togetherness was promised in the heavens above. You were supposed to hold my hand when I was about to fall. You were supposed to walk with me, stay by my side. Now that I’ve already fallen in the holes of distrust created by these self-centered people around me, will you come to pick me up? Will you hold my hand now? Will you stay by my side now? My skin is slowly unlearning the touch of love. My body is forgetting what blooming feels like. Will you bring spring back to this bruised body and shattered soul? My trust is shredded and crumbled bit by bit. This world taught me the beauty of crumbling. Will I be able to trust again? Will I be able to love again?  Waiting to see you in t...

7 Habits of every happy couple that you and your partner should adopt

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Falling in love is beautiful, rather an understatement it’s magical. Here are some little habits of every happy couple. No Communication gaps Sometimes a message saying  miss you  or  I Love you  when your partner is at work can bring a smile to their face and reminds them that you think about them.    Stay in touch with each other throughout the day.     Make each other feel special Being a part of someone’s life is special, knowing that they love you is more special. Little actions to make them feel special can bring spring to your love life.    Starting a day together A good morning message is not a compulsion but it will make your partner realize that you think about them when you’re about to start your day and if you’re together lather each other with kisses and hugs.    Discuss what is going wrong A relationship is built upon trust and respect, wherever things are going wrong discuss it ...