It had to end.
It wasn’t forever. It had to end. I cherished every moment. I engraved every moment somewhere deep in my heart. I tried to soak up the feeling of happiness and to be in love. I used to close my eyes during our phone calls and listen to the sound of your voice. I used to listen to your laughter. Laughter that was on your lips yet filled my life with joy. I used to absorb that laughter, so that I could picture it anytime. It felt like I am drinking endlessly alone at night. My mind is full of random happy thoughts, knowing that drinking would cause me trouble in the morning. But I don’t care. I want to keep going because those random happy thoughts feel great. You were my happy thoughts, and in the morning, you are my hangover too, that nearly killed me. Hangover that gave me numbness. I don’t know how long or what it’s going to take for me to get rid of that numbness now. Now I am empty. There are no happy thoughts. There is no drinking endlessly. ...